my name in the dictionary.

Muhammad Fadhli Imran Asari -- [noun]: A person of questionable sanity who starts their own cult 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

im awake and im afraid.

feelings at 5 mins to 7 in the morning...

i dont know how to start this post. all i know is that im feeling awful. not good at all. the two weeks holidays is almost over, then its back to sucky kuaz and stinky dku and bad food. a positive is that friends are there. thats good. but then, its the holidays that im trying to bring up. i thought it was going to be loads and loads and loads of fun after the big finals which btw sucks. its as if i can see that relief and enjoyment are waiting for me to to join them on a train of fun right after the finals, which they had stuck their hands out, trying to pull me up as i was chasing the train to join them, but i was left behind. the train of fun had gone. long gone, and its not turning back for me. everyone else is on that train except for me. im left all alone on the platform, at the station. feeling very lonely, depressed and angry at the same time. promises, broken. hopes, remains hopes. dreams, shattered. happiness, taken away. fun, no more. the clock is still ticking, its not going to stop. it continues on and on. youre sad, happy, fun-filled or bord to your bones, time still passes by. which is cruel. im talking crap, even i dont really understand but its okay. i like it this way. sometimes i feel that in order to make someone happy or fell good about themselves, you need to sacrifice, or lie in certain circumstances. the most times that i'd sacrificed or take it in my stride it makes the other person feel good, but me, mostly i'll feel bad and full of anger which i dont really know who or what should this anger be directed to. it usually will make me feel stupid, but i dont regret in doing the thing that i had done but i'll feel bad. in some cases i'll be just fine, like there's nothing to it. its okay when im feeling like that, the problem is when the times where it'd make me feel like "this sucks bad, damn bad". damn it. two weeks wasted damn it. the things that i had done during the hols is went out once to klcc, slept over at sam's for a night, helping out at my aunt's open house. no movies, no friends, no fun, no enjoyment, no relief. i could have gone to china for a holiday damn it, but i turned down the offer. silly, super silly me. note to self : family first whenever possible. my holidays are almost over, and still, i havent got the chance to do what i wanted to do the most even before the holidays started. ive waited, and waited and it didnt come. it stays like that. just like that. and yet, i still have to wait. heck, ive been waiting for a long time. and still i need to wait. unfair. un-just. intolerable. im too good of a guy i guess. damn.

pictures.

okay, its been a while since the holidays started and still i havent post up anything new. been almost a week i guess, the last post. em, but this time around, i decided to post up the pictures that ive been wanted to post for a while already. since my laptop cant receive any bluetooth files from any devices, i need to wait till i can use my sister's pc sneakishly. its hard work you know, to upload these pics, upload it first to my sis pc, then i have to send it to my laptop all through YM. haha. so, enjoy i guess.

lab partners. conducting experiments.

me, wearing a beanie is it ? do i have the daniel powter look ?

me, promoting a book. pic taken at OU, i dont remember the name of the bookstore.
damn, my face looks weird because of that light reflection.

picture taken at mid valley. wasting time.

the above picture after editing and altering. we're Pondering Our Future.


another picture taken at the same place at mid valley. resting !!


this is a good way to save ringgits. picture taken in a sticker booth at OU, but then we didnt pay for the stickers to be printed out, we posed, and took the pic using our camera phones. xP

another picture taken in the sticker booth. its free. go on, try it out.


am turning crazy, stuck at 12th college cause it was raining. was helping sam , brought his scooter back home.


we're wasted. this is what we'd usually do when there's like nothing else to be done. posing and taking pictures. i think i look different in this pic, a bit more good looking i presume. =P

=P, went to sleep at sam's the other day, and the guys wanted to go to a karaoke, i followed along, and there at the KTV, there's this sign . No G.R.O service. dang. the sign is kinda stupid.

i am not a pervert okay. this is interesting. i was buying a few things at KJ's giant, and i dont know which stupid person who'd changed his/her minds on whether to buy a bra or not, which when he/she decided not to, he/she just simply hung it at the chocolates shelf near the counter.


another pic while im stuck at 12th, damn bored. i wasted around 1 1/2 hours there waiting for the rain to subside.

picture taken in the physics lab without me knowing.

well, you know what people say, a picture is worth a thousand words. so by posting up pictures ive technically posted up around 14,000 words. that should be enough i guess. heh. do leave comments, i'll appreciate it.

toodles

cheerio !

oh bte, im kinda extra bored hanging around at home during this holidays that are almost ending. so, please, do ask me out for a movie or something. just ask me out yeah, go wondering around wasting time is better than staying at home. boreddd !!

relief.

2 weeks of hell, 2 weeks of tension, 2 weeks of destroying myself. "pushed" myself to the limits. late nights, early mornings, and still the exams was hell. but then again, now that the exams are over, the holidays are starting !! am too happy that the holidays had started, roughly about 13 hours ago. am out enjoying the night, burning more midnite oil, and using up more hard earned money, but then, this time round, its for fun, and not for study purposes. am happy that i am having fun, well to say the least. got to study a bit during the holidays as most of the exams are tough as hell. almnost all are un-answerable. even english was tough. fuck. algebra sucks the most. i handed in the answer sheet the way it was handed in to me. with some scribblings here and there. for sure am going to fail algebra. haha. am dead meat. looking forward to meeting up with fara in bout a week's time. she's still having her exams. stupid jasin. em. and also, these 2 weeks costs a lot. id spent a lot of ringgits. damn it. till then, going to update my blog more when im at home !!

cheerio.
toodles.